Recorded 2023 at home
Drums recorded & engineered by: Stephen Leiweke at Yackland Studio in Nashville, TN
Mixed by: Stephen Leiweke
Mastered by: Alex McCollough at True East Mastering
Artwork by: Meghan Testerman & Adams Eberwein
Produced by: Adams Eberwein & Dan Illi
"The Way We Break" is a yearlong project where I'll release one song a month. It represents the first time I've invited new musicians to collaborate on a recording since the band retired from live performance in 2017. It was written after a breakup that absolutely wrecked me. Where most people would turn to a friend or a therapist, I turned to music to help get me through.
Stand in Place
I had a vision
A waking dream in my mind
The great decision
The biggest choice of my life
I can’t walk toward the light
All I ever do is hesitate
Tell the torturer to add more wait
sitting in the waiting room of hell
Just stand in place
Just float in space
something’s wrong
Cus something great
Will be worth the wait
But how long
Ohhh every facet has its shine
Ohhh the truest color comes with time
mental pollution
is factored in the design
nothing's ever right
I'm only happy when I hesitate
I'm so sad I just depress the brakes
Can't help but stop myself
Just stand in place
Just float in space
Something’s wrong
Cus something great
Will be worth the wait
But how long
How long
How long
Ohhh the clearest view is from the fence
Ohhh i'll get the answer in past tense
Move On
Trying my best to get to sleep
You can’t stay awake
You call me your greatest gift
You're my great mistake
And it’s hard to know what to think
God all I want is a drink
So don't you bother calling me
I’m hung up on apathy
My heart is gone
I guess it's time to move on
You're tryin' to play my sympathies
There ain't nothin' left to take
Give you anything you wish
If I knew I wouldn't break
And it's hard to know what to think
When all my ship does is sink
Don't you bother calling me
Save your breath on saving me
My heart is gone
I guess it's time to move on
Yeah
That's the way you break
That's the way you break
That's the way you break
That's the way you break
Truth
It's time I told you all the truth
It's time I pushed you off the roof
To see if you can fly
Or if you'd even try
But I don't think you should look down
We'll do this hard way
We'll make the wrong mistakes
Ask why when it's all over
But is that the right play
Is that the way we break
Or can we start this over
Can we start it over now
This hasn’t gone the way I’d planned
And I can’t even understand
How things got this far
I can’t tell where you even are
But I know we’ll keep heading down
We'll do this hard way
We'll make the wrong mistakes
Ask why when it's all over
But is that the right play
Is that the way we break
Or can we start this over
Blame it on me
I refuse to listen
No one wants to hear me agree
Blame it on me
I refuse to listen
You don't want to hear me agree
We'll do this hard way
We'll make the wrong mistakes
Ask why when it's all over
But is that the right play
Is that the way we break
Or can we start this over
Can we start it over now
So I Lie
I just can't stop missing you
I don't know why
When I think about you
with another guy
I freak
I freak myself out
You did nothing wrong
so who else can I blame
So I try to drill you
make you say his name
as if
as if that'll calm me down
So here you come back around
What am I gonna do now
So I lie
So I lie
Say I'm fine
Ain't no crime
(Who cares?)
Everybody's got a thing
they wanna hide
But somehow I built up
a lifetime supply
and now
Now i'm trapped in a corner
And I can't find my way out
so what am I gonna do now
I'll just lie
I'll just lie
Say I'm fine
I'm conflict averse
I like being nice
If you never have to know that I am dead inside
then I don't have to be the sad and lonely guy
isn't that the safest way to fly
So I lie (I lie all the time)
So I lie (I lie all)
I'm just fine (all the time)
Broken by Design
I just wanna be a good kid
pay my taxes
go to bed on time
I put my time in
carried water
toed the company line
Broken by design
I've been robbed of my own prime
Here's your dollar where's my dime
There's no ladder left to climb
There's nowhere left to run
Where would you go
and who do you know
We're trying to act like
this is normal
just to catch the boss's shine
Broken by design
We're devouring our own kind
Here's my dollar and my dime
Where's the life I left behind
There's nowhere left to run
Where would you go
Who do you know
How could I
begrudge you trying to get from 0 up to 9
when all I've ever done is try to get on by
Is there anything more to life
Is there anything more to life
Rattler
C'mon and tell me
how you want this to go
and tell me
Does everyone know but me
'Cus I've been cut low
Now I'm just a
Rattler under a stone
This wound you can't leave alone
I feel you deep in my bones
When you broke me
did it fill up your soul
'cus now i'm empty
Don't know where to go
So now i'm crouching 'neath you like a
Rattler under a stone
This wound you can't leave alone
I feel you deep in my bones
Here I come baby
Everyone got to go
That's right
Here I come baby
so you'd better clear the floor
I'm back from the forest cutting wood
things just ain't worked out too good
and now it's time to shut it down
I feel you deep in my bones
Fake It Till You Make It
Wear your rage
like your mom's high heels
borrowed armor
something not quite real
and you're rusting out the insides
with your tears
Cut until you bleed
and I'll be right there waiting
right there to hold the knife
Yeah cut until you bleed
and I'll be right there waiting
right there to hold the knife
Music fades
crowd disappears
get to know
all your lonely fears
and you tell yourself
just what you want to hear
But you ain't foolin' me
I'll be right there waiting
right there for your whole life
So fake it till you make it
bend it till you break it
I'm in love with the girl that you used to be
But now she ain't never coming home to me
so what do I do now?
Every millionaire is an actor these days
No one's ever quite what they seem
And every romance comes from Hollywood lately
Every costume's ripping its seams
So fake it till you make it
bend it till you break it
I'm in love with the girl that you used to be
But now she ain't never coming home to me
so what do I do now?
I'm in love with the girl that you used to be
But now she ain't never coming home to me
so what do I do now?