Parasite & Host

"Parasite & Host" is the Adams Wilson equivalent of a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde story. Half the songs were formed in jam sessions between Dan Illi, Ryan Buzby, and myself. The other half were written by me during the COVID-19 pandemic. All of them are straight up Rock songs fueled by pure unbridled id - born in a cynical time of life where I put my conscience in handcuffs and embraced the darkness. Sure it's heavy, but you have to let the shadows out to play once in a while.

Recorded 2020 at home
Boothwyn, Pennsylvania
Produced & Engineered by: Adams Eberwein
Mastered by Paul Hammond at The Spot

Fire in the Fields

Whispered voices echo a theme
that you got a problem and it's probably me
there are answers that you won't believe

There’s fire in the fields
that you just can't escape
you're blaming everything
that isn't you

You solve every problem that isn't your own
your mansion is glass and you've got enough stones
I'm just wondering if anyone's home lately

Or is there fire in the fields
that you just can't escape
You're blaming everything
that isn't you
There are matches in your hands
ashes in your hair
And you're asking everyone
what they're gonna do

Everyone wanna live forever
maybe you ain't quite that clever
I don't want to see what's on your mind
you can tell everyone that you left behind

There's fire in the fields
you just can't escape (you can't escape)
you're asking everyone
what they're gonna do

Mercy

Never really wanted to hurt no one
but I guess I took a piece out of you
living in the bowels of a tailor-made hell
all your prophecies are coming true

Everyone you know has turned their back on you
and the cuts are turning into scars
you thought you had some faith in the human race 
but now it's gone too damn far

You want mercy (mercy)
ooh baby sweet mercy (mercy)
keep begging for some mercy
but it ain't comin' anytime soon

God's been out of country for a couple thousand years
and you wonder if he's coming back
so all your fussin' and your fightin' fall on merciless ears
you can make what you want out of that

You want mercy (mercy)
ooh baby sweet mercy (mercy)
you're begging for some mercy
but it ain't comin' anytime soon

No one wants to be the bearer of this news
but I gotta be that guy for you
the world just ain't forgiving that's what keeps the strongest living
and I don't think that it's gonna be you 

You want mercy (mercy)
ooh baby sweet mercy (mercy)
oh you're begging for some mercy
but it ain't comin' anytime soon

Wrench

I threw a wrench into your perfect life
it keeps you up almost every night

Rattlin' in your mind
you tell yourself you're fine

The pills you take ain't working right
your little man wants to know what's wrong with his wife

Trying to ease his mind
but you can't put out your fire

'Cus i’m the man
your man worries about
Dug in deep
now you can’t get me out
Love you know
that you can't live without

Nothing you do turns out all right
Like you got near heaven but ooh not quite

clock says 3:09
but there's too much on your mind

'Cus i’m the man 
your man worries about (yes I'm the man)
Dug in deep
now you can’t get me out (yeah I'm the man)
Love you know
that you can't live without

And my darkest of crimes
seem to fade with time 
to the back of your mind
the perfect place to hide 

I’m the man 
your man worries about (yes I'm the man)
Dug in so deep
now you can’t get me out (cus I'm the man)
Love you know
that you can't live without

Tell Me What You Need

Tell me
tell me

I don't need your help to get to sleep
cus you ain't made no promises you need to keep
baby all I want from you
the only thing you need to do

Tell me what you need
tell me what you need
I am down here on my hands and knees
tell me what you need
I can take the bleed
tell me what
tell me what you need

Now you ain't got to wander to meet your needs
looking for eden's apple well we got the seeds
I will take the fall for you
the only thing you need to do

Tell me what you need
tell me what you need
I am down here on my hands and knees
so tell me what you
tell me what you
tell me what
tell me what you need

I Got the Time

You got your feelings bottled up
bottled up
You drink the booze it ain't enough
ain't enough
You got these demons on your mind
on your mind

I got the time
I got the time

Your childhood dreams just left you dust
left you dust
Your highschool sweetheart treats you rough
treats you rough
You see your future cutting shy
cutting shy

I got the time
I got the time

You don't know what you want to do 
you only know the worst is coming true
You don't know where you want to go
you only know that you can't take it slow

I got the time
tell me your crimes 
I got the time
I got the time
I got the time

Where We Go

Cut
bleeding it slow
Murderer and victim
Parasite and host

Falling apart this
is the way we live at night
Memorized darkness
I'm awake and awake and awake I'm up now
tired and heartless
I'm asleep from all the wine
here's to the now

Run
I don't know where to go
Missing the chase I started
but no one can know

Embracing the failure
like it's burned into my mind
Blurring the line now
cus I've done it a dozen a hundred a thousand times
Killing the kindness
like a heretic on fire
killing the light

Falling apart this
is the way we live at night
Memorized darkness
I'm awake and awake and awake I'm up now
tired and harmless
I'm asleep from all the wine
here's to the now

The Devil's Back

Rode on into town on the devil’s back
Trying to kill my hunger with a tasty snack
Hoping I could find a meal that bites me back
So I ask a pretty lady you got any of that

She said you look as criminal as you are dumb
well try and find a white hat who has any fun
Let's give the road to hell a little trial run
If there's trouble in the neighborhood I'll find me some

I don't to wake up in an ambulance
that's gonna take me straight to hell if god gets his chance
Well I tried the path of purity yeah
But the devil got his hooks in me
I gotta move ahead 
Because there’s no turning back 

Your man thinks he been wronged and he wants me to pay
Bought himself a gun now he’s a renegade 
Nothing but a fool it’s just his part to play
I’ll put him down forget him and be on my way 

Cus I ain't gonna wake up in an ambulance
that's gonna take me straight to hell if god gets his chance
I tried the path of purity
But the devil got his hooks in me
Now I gotta move ahead 
Because there’s no 
there ain't no turning back

Wise

Go on and tell your god
that you wanna be wise
and he'll just carve your face
with some deeper lines

Yeah he’ll make a day pass
In ten years’ time 

Clear as day
but I can't see
even though i know the way
is right there in front of me
freeze
no I can't leave
even though I know the way
is right there in front of me now
now

Whether you like it or not
get used to saying goodbyes
'Cus he'll kill your love
while you barely survive

Yeah he'll make a life pass
before its time

Clear as day
but I can't see
even though I know the way
is right there in front of me
freeze
Oh I can't leave
even though I know the way
is right there in front of me
now
now

You know the answers
you won't know the reasons why
so take your answers
and say goodbye
yeah
c'mon and say goodbye

No I can't leave
even though I know the way
is right there in front of me now
no I can't leave
why can't I see the way
is right there in front of me
now
now

Handshy

Hit too many times I’m a
dog who’s become handshy
Never know where punishment’s 
coming from
Keep getting beat 
and I don’t know why
Catching hell for
invisible crimes 
I came here just to lick my wounds

But I don’t know what went wrong 
I thought I had played along 

Keep breaking it before you set it 
Gonna break you if you up and let it 
I can’t figure out who I pissed off  

My plans keep getting pushed aside
My heart’s been locked up so damn tight
I ran you down
when you tried to set things right 
did my best but I still lose
answer's wrong whichever I choose
tell me what
you think I'm supposed to do

I never know what went wrong 
keep trying to play along 

Keep breaking it before you set it 
Gonna break you if you up and let it 
I can’t figure out who I pissed off  

Keep breaking it before you set it
Gonna break you if you up and let it
Make your choice but every choice is wrong

Wasted the middle segment
of a short life
playing with the edges of
your own mind
trying to learn to tie a noose

Keep breaking it before you set it 
Gonna break you if you up and let it 
I can’t figure out who I pissed off  

Keep breaking it before you set it
Gonna break you if you up and let it
I can’t figure out who I pissed off  
where'd I go wrong

It'll Be Ok

Somebody told me I am in the need of a vacation
but unfortunately I have just one minor complication

See I don't know where to go
and I don't wanna go alone

I don't know what to say
so I'll just dig my own grave
and I don't wanna believe that it'll be okay

Everyone tells little lies to smooth their situation
but some of us skipped to the end because we got impatient

We know how this will go
the whole thing's rigged to blow

Imagine if you will a world in which there's variation
where everyone has what they need without remuneration

And we all enjoyed the show
and no one had to go

I don't know what to say
so I'll just dig my own grave
'cus I don't wanna believe it'll be okay

Suddenly I feel the slightest pressure on my head
as if someone's trying to drill into my temple
just because they didn't like some words that I have said
they're going to go and make me an example
ain't that something
quite peculiar

Oh I don't know what to say
so I'll just dig my own grave
and I don't wanna believe it'll be okay

Only Fooling

Well you bought your ticket
c'mon and take your seat
see some autopyromania
c'mon and feel the heat

Was I only fooling myself
was I only fooling you
either way I was only fooling

My whole life in front of me
should last a day or two
how much can I jam into it
how much is filled with you

Was I only fooling myself
was I only fooling you
either way I was only fooling

Was I only fooling myself
was I only fooling you
either way I was only fooling

Slam Piece

Know what you want
and what you wanted to say
C'mon darlin' say it anyway
I still refuse to be
what you want 
and what you wanted from me

And I believe
in your right to be
Yeah I believe
just the same as me

Gun under the table
Aimed between your knees
I'll tell you if I'm able
I'm not your slam piece

I've been clawing at my brain
trying to figure out why i'm going insane
over you
cus i've been around before
don't know what's knocking on my front door

I believe
in your right to be
Yeah I believe
just the same as me

Gun under the table
Aimed between my knees
Kill me if you're able
But I'm not your slam piece
I'm not your slam piece
girl i'm not your slam piece

I've been clawing at my brain
trying to figure out why i'm going insane
over you